I have overcome lots of my scars, but they do resurface. I actually haven't been to IC in 2 months, but I have an apt this week. I need to tackle this a little more. We have, but something always triggers my insecurity and throws me back into old patterns.
As far as the anxiety..... it's not really anxiety anymore. It's a general annoyance. I don't worry about if it is going to end, or what I did wrong. I finally came to peace with that. if it ends it ends. And if it ends, it's because we are in different places, not because I s^ck. I just do not like being ignored in the in between. So it's more of I am not enjoying this part of the ride and I am getting P'O'd more than anything.
I am going to bring up the communication issue very casually. Not going to make a big deal about it at all. but it's worth mentioning.
I do have to mix it up. I have realized I have made the dates except for the first one. Part of it, is I plan around my kid time, mine is always more strict because I get one free day a week. We have another that he thought about doing and I bought the tickets. Anything in between will be left in his ballpark. I would like to pursued a little.
It is a tough transition when you are also so used to do EVERYTHING because you are on your own. I am a get it done chick. I handle all of D's appts deadlines, paperwork, sports, ect. No one picks up any slack for me. So it is my tendency to get the dates and plans made.
And the funny thing is, I LOVE when a guy does all that. I can't stand always being the one. I am just so used to doing it. I loved that about FF. He made dates and plans happen.
