job - I don't want a divorce and I don't want to instigate something I don't want. I want to find the quickest way to relieve my pain - in the short term the easiest way is to remember to breath and it takes somebody to remind me sometimes!!
I cant imagine feeling like this for another two years.
MarvinF - you describe exactly how I feel - I cycle between hope and despair. I'm full of emotion and sometimes wonder how I'm going to move forward.
I feel better when she is not around. She is getting a place of her own, but the paperwork is going to take some time to complete. It will feel a relief in someways when she is gone. Its not what I want either but some distance is going to help.
I fear for the long term effect this is having on our children; the loss of the family unit as I once knew because someone is unhappy and doesn't know why.
It was suggested today that the feelings follow the person. So even when she has moved out she will still be feeling the same and over time she may realise that those feelings can no longer be attributed to me; that is the hope I hang onto, but is it realistic to live that way. Living in hope that she realises her actions are a mistake.
