Please stop and take a huge breath! Take some time and think about the situation and what you want. If you are ready to start the divorce proceedings, so be it...but do take some time and really think about it and how a divorce will impact your life, i.e., child support, custody arrangements, who will live in the home, will the home be sold at the time of the divorce, etc. These are things that you need to think about w/a clear head and today is not the day to do it because you've just left the lawyer's office.
Breathe! Give yourself a bit of time to mull all of this over and then you will know if you want to proceed w/a divorce to get it over and done with. Whatever you decide, we will support you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.