Had a really bad day - meeting with a lawyer -

wife won't instigate divorce proceedings immediately but wants to go down the two year separation route. We don't have no fault divorces, where I live. The alternative is I instigate the divorce against her and its all sorted out within six months.

It feels like I would be giving up, but it will be the quickest way to get her out of my life so I can start feeling like me again. We are not even room mates as she won't even spend time with me in the same room.

I don't see any point anymore in trying to be with someone who clearly has no interest in being with me; I understand the intricacies of mlc but the reality is she doesn't want to be with me, so why prolong it.

and then the mixed messages - it just gives me hope on the one hand and then takes it away with the other.

and its another hot summer; she is wearing very little and I'm still attracted to her and love her so much.

This is all so painful. When will it stop.