What I am trying to figure out is this making me feel better or worse? Is seeing someone once a week and being ignored in the in between something that is fun for me or isn't?
I was talking to my cousin about my house this morning and she takes a picture of HC right next to her (they share a work bench). I say "Hi, hope you had a nice trip!" She shows it to him. Nothing. I text him "just wanted to say hi myself and welcoming you back from your trip. Nothing.
It just isn't cool with me. It doesn't feel good.
I currently feel like in control of nothing and like I am at everyone's mercy with different things in my life.
It simply doesn't feel good. I guess I'll see how Wednesday night feels if it even happens.
