Kml, maybe so. In my mind I was thinking divorce will force my husband to face reality, look at numbers on a piece of paper (he has no concept of a budget), and realize how expensive divorce is and how he's losing financial freedom to gain his freedom as a bachelor. I guess justice is the wrong word but I wish for him to feel that he's also losing something. In January he said he'd give up everything to gain his freedom. I hope he's figuring out he can't just have total freedom with no consequences.
Yesterday I took my daughter to a lake where my husband and I used to go. It was across from a grocery store where we were shopping and I said "let's stop by the lake where your father and I used to go and feed the fish." Later when my husband called our daughter on facetime she said "today we went to the mommy-daddy lake...." My husband asked me if that's the lake across from the grocery story and I said yes. He said "yeah" in a very sad way. His eyes were already puffy and then he started crying and said he had to go.
There's still nothing at all from my husband about being sorry or reconciling. I know there may never be. But for now I think the party is over. I have a feeling the 26 year old broke things off a while back. Now my husband is jobless, alone, and probably can't stay living in our house. He might be gaining just an ounce of awareness as to how badly he screwed up.
