Cory, I feel the exact same way about the whole world being based on deceit and lies and that being how our society is now. There are so many positive things happening with LGBT rights and women's rights and support for immigrants but simultaneously there are a lack of mainstream leaders in society that uphold strong moral values. Having an affair is supposed to carry a really, really bad stigma. In the Middle East the punishment could be stoning to death although nowadays that basically never happens, but still, abandoning your family and having an affair is wrong. I just can't understand how shameless many of the wayward spouses on this forum are. Sounds like you're doing great though. I'm sure if your wife doesn't notice your progress lots of other women will so at least you'll know there are options should you choose to see a new partner someday.