Thanks, Amoafwl, I read about those stages and I know them well from previous losses. They are not as linear as some people might think, for example, I kept going back and forth between denial, anger and acceptance. I have now mostly accepted the situation, so I have no need for anger just now, at least not about the relationship. I should have seen it coming, really.
I am angry at her for a number of other reasons now. Mostly, because she snapped up a house I was looking to rent, which would have been ideal. Now I am struggling to find a place to stay, the places are either too expensive, too tiny or don't accept dogs. So I am pissed at her for making me have to move and I am stressed out of my head that I won't find anywhere, that she'll push for the house sale as she now has somewhere to move into, and that I end up homeless.
At the moment, I am worried about that so much, I don't even care about the marriage or anything else, I just don't want to be homeless. Or end up in a hole that just makes me depressed. It freaks me out.
