Thanks, I hope something happens soon. The anticipation is the worst.
Today is 9 years divorced for me. Still single, never remarried, no more kids and 38 years old, still not living in my own secure home. They are still married and have been married almost twice as long as we were. I think our marriage technically doesn't even count anymore. I feel more like a never married single mother. I know I have made some great accomplishments in the past 9 years since that day. But I guess a little bit of a dark cloud looms over me not being anywhere near I thought I would be.
I am back at work this morning. Yay. Not. I have not heard from HC since Thursday. No anxiety comes with it, I know he has been away and it's not his thing. But MY thing is, hey, reach out, say hi, it's nice to know someone is thinking of you. But then I realize, he may very well not be thinking of me. It kind of feels blah. Again, not constant text banter. Don't want that. Just knowing someone is thinking of you when you haven't seen them just feels sort of nice. But I have to be aware of the fact I am dating a divorced guy who doesn't want anything "real" right now placing myself back to where I got hurt in 2 R's being in the same position. I question it, Because of I am feeling in this process.
I also hate feeling like my needs are unreasonable. And I am only going along with what the other person can give.
I still have to figure this one out. But for now, I am going to focus on the housing situation and I will have him over as planned for dinner Wednesday. Like I said, great time with him, the in between is like he isn't even around, and we see each other once a week. (almost 2 weeks in this case). I don't know how well that works for me. but the alternative.
