I have those moments too, wondering if I should have supported more been more understanding. The truth is every spouse in the world can be that . I was pregnant and was consumed by just managing myself and a toddler. So were you, the other 99% of partners stick by their families ours are bailing out . Stop blaming yourself , every time you miss him think of things that you do not miss about him. Walking out on you is a good first item for that list - arshi