Quit blaming yourself! It won't fix things, it actually will works against you bc then you'll be down in the dumps. Plus, it takes two to tango. Both parties could have done better and he is no saint!
Hopefully this time to yourself can be productive and good for you. I will say a prayer for you and the kids.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.