MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART X

[ItHurts]

Thanks Artista, yeah I am totally fine with that. I think the confusion comes in here with some posters because they think I want a relationship with WAW right now. Actually I am fine with things as they are going. I'm not necessarily ready to jump into another relationship so soon after I just got out of a long term relationship. Like WAW, I need some time for just me right now. Hanging with WAW works for us both. As I told her last Monday, if we end up in the sack in two weeks fine, if not that's fine too. If we end up back together great, of not so be it. I just want to see where this all leads. So far it's going well. I see when she looks at me that there is still something inside her for me...but I can't force that to blossom...it has to happen in its own time. If I was in a rush to R then things probably would've went South with us already. Neither of us is in a rush, and I do feel in time WAW and I will have that inevitable conversation about R. It's going to come yo eventually and I think she knows that too. For now I am just using this time for WAW to get to know the new me. Now every other time we've said goodbye it was just a hug. Last night she kissed me. As small as that seems, it is progress. So I agree that I think I am handling things well and that last night was perfect. Baby steps until we both reach a point where we're both ready to be in a committed relationship. Right now neither of us is and that's fine. Everything happens for a reason and in the grand scheme of things it seems the universe is bringing WAW and I together again for a reason. Mary and I broke up and then WAW reemerges. It's like fate is guiding us...if you believe in that sort of thing.