Feeling a bit down at the moment and I don't know if it's my heart or my ego (or shall I say pride) that is hurt. EX is now using the term us when he talks about him and his GF. What really hurt the most was that he changed his FB pictures to put a picture of him and her. I know i shouldn't look at his FB page. I'm sad as during our 11 years of marriage there has never been a picture of us as a married couple. Also he never put pictures of his others GF. This one has only been in his life 2 months and he is making a big statement to the world.
While I'm writing this I a ralsing that I'm talking from jealousy/ Pride point of view. How come this man who cheating on me for 2 years, then cheated on the woman he cheated me with be happy? How come he gets all these dates and I'm still single. I tried dating websites and it's not for me at ALL!
I'm a good person, kind, caring, with a weird sense of humour, helpful, not manipulative, deceitful, however I am still single (i do go out). Why life is so unfair? Why does he deserve to be happy? How come he can look at himself in the mirror and not feel any guilt? I feel guilty for kicking him out as it meant that was the end of my marriage!
i know that he isn't stable. This year was the first time in 3 years that he didn't turn up to a major sport event for our daughters. Also this week my kids are with him as it is supposed to be his holidays week with them, then I found out that he is working (whereas for the last two years he has always taken this week off. I guess now he has to share his 4 weeks holidays between his kids and his GF!!
Gosh I am so bitter. I don't deserve this. NOr do my kids!
