WAW - Managing Limbo Period Pt 2

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So, quick update. We're back from vacation. All passed without incident mostly. Sleeping in the same bed was fine. No drama. No humour either, but it was just sleeping as V says.

I threw myself into having fun with the kids, had a fair amount of alcohol with our friends, exercised every day (running biking, walking) and generally took advantage of being away to get some time to rest and reflect. The interaction with my W continues to be false, strained, humorless on her part. She seems to making herself more distant from me every day - and as we were heading home even started to show the same tendencies in the way she spoke and treated me as before BD - short with me, nothing I can do is right, not looking me in the eye, no smiling. I just keep level and normal when she does that, but to me this is all just as before BD - her mood dictated by the fact that she no longer wants to be with me.

Since we've been home, just back to her old ways. Secretive, moody, straight on her burner phone to check her whatsapps (presumably from the OM..). She clearly does not want to make any effort with me, and if she is going to be like this, I don't see the point in the MC we have planned for Monday morning. We are just delaying the inevitable, and life is too short. I'm getting to the point where I'm feeling ambivalent about her completely - love is waning fast, respect for her going completely, and given her relationship with the OM (whether it's over or not), I'm not even sure if I want her back - never mind whether I can ever regain the trust she has smashed to pieces with a sledgehammer.

So question - should I raise this with her today and see where her head really is at, asking her if she really wants to do MC? Because her actions are speaking way louder than her words at this point, and it takes two to R.

I think you'll probably say 'no - see the MC and have the convo with a third party present' - and I get that. And that I should be more patient. I know. Just not sure if there's much point the way she is acting.

Thoughts appreciated today. We'll have less of an opportunity to discuss tomorrow as the kids are around.