I get it OK, it's understandable that you're angry. The whole situation is hard, but you have got to find a solution. For me that has been meditation, prayer and bible study (as well as lifting weights and spending as much quality time with my son as I can). But, it has also meant learning how to be vulnerable with MALE friends that will listen and let me work through this mess. This board is great for getting advice, and realizing that you aren't alone in this, but you need support in real life too. You're staying with your brother, do you have that type of relationship with him? CAN you have that type of relationship with him? I've been shocked by the support I've gotten from my guy friends that I've never had deep conversations with before. You can and will get through this, but you shouldn't do it alone. At least talking to someone will help you get it out and help you fight sending it to her.


Me: Late 30s WW: Late 30s
M: 12
S: 7
BD: Late April '18 (Wife left next day)
OM confirmed: July '18 (20+ years older)

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. - Psalms 34:18