Juju, It's like when you a friend tries to hook you up with someone else and their compatibility factor is that they are both single. Sure, you both want long term commitment and family. Most people do, but that doesn't mean everyone is compatible. There goes a whole lot into making long term commitment and family to work, not just wanting it.
I know you know that. It's not easy to let go. Be good to yourself though, and don't be so hard on yourself.
Have you thought of renting a 2 bedroom apartment? I lived with my dad and stepmom for 2 and a half months after bomb drop. But my dad, as much as I love him, is impossible to live with. He is a man set in his ways and OCD with cleaning and you can't interrupt his routine. It becomes super stressful, so I get it. You may not be able to buy, so see what is available to rent. My house is being sold, and I understand the struggle of trying to stay in a school district with an extremely expensive area. Keep your eyes and options open.
