And heres a question for you. Lets say she went and was sleeping with OW today? How does that change anything for you? What if she were out for a romantic lunch? Or what if they sat and played Boggle? How do any of those things change your plans?
It would change my plans in so far as I would give up all LRT or DB efforts and wish her good riddance.
How about in your mind, you do that. What would that look/feel like? Would you be stopping waiting for her to come home? Would you be out GALing? Would your mind stop 'racing'?
No it wouldn't, it would make matters worse. It would make me feel angry to the point where I would want to destroy every last reminder of our relationship in this house (above and beyond what I already chucked out the day after the BD). It would make me pack up my belongings and my dog and run home to mum. Which, as my rational self now knows, I don't want to do, because I want to stay in the UK, I want to stay near the few friends I have, and I want to do the campervan thing going travelling. As I can't do that yet, I need to try and keep busy, try and not listen for the keys, try and GAL without forcing me to do stuff I don't really want to do, and keep working on getting a place, and ultimately, said van.
