Can I really do this #4

[Dtrmned]

As you can see by my quick response, I am waiting for any feedback I can get on this.
My question and I'm am realizing as I type and get the feedback I desperately need, is that is more of my W "creating" a crisis to justify her decision rather than my seeing an actual issue and reacting and how I react to it.

I know she is confused. ALL of her words, actions, etc. tell me and everyone else that. Arsh, I appreciate you checking in and I know you are dealing with a TON of stuff (though I don't have much to add or advise on) your sitch is one that I am diligently following and I am rooting for your family and happiness all the way!

The grind is just so hard. day by day. What surprise is next? Is this really possible? Or should I move on? I would love to say patience is one of my strong parts, but truly it is not. Entrepreneurs tend to lean toward the "solve the issue now" mentality and move on to the next. This is not a problem, it is a life changing challenging issue that is before my entire family. It affects me and everyone else.

So yes. I am in limbo. It hurts so much to have the person you vowed (and they as well) to be together and through anything for the rest of your life, looks at you with dead eyes, disdain, resentment, etc. etc. etc. AND you knowing almost totally that their path that is without you is filled with so much more struggle and strife that it doesn't make sense to anyone. I just don't now how to turn the page and I'm so worried that taking longer will result in us despising and hating each other more in the future.