DB, thanks. I write and voice out these things to make myself believe in it, there are times the same day where I am miserable too.
Nicole and Steve, thanks I am looking up both articles to read.
Jim, thanks. yes one of his major complaints is I was not emotionally supportive thru his depression when I was pregnant last year. A lot of this is on me, as an adult half of it is my responsibility and I should look into fixing what I have failed at. I strongly do believe he will get back, I do not know when and I am not planning D items based on this belief for whenever he returns it will have to be a fresh start between two better people. Until then, my children need me and I need them more.




He is buying crazy number of toys and clothes for kids to keep at his new place, keeps asking me for their size and other questions about household stuff. I have stayed to the point and answered just the questions
This morning D3 discovered a box full of toys meant for her that he plans to open at his new place, she insisted on having them. H lost his temper at me because he didn’t know how to handle the question and I think I blew it too, but most of this not In Front of D3
H - why are you f***ing with me showing her these things
I - she followed me and found them herself I am not f**ing with you
H- I am struggling here and you are pissing on my parade making things harder
I - I am not , this is all your game, your way, not anybody else’s
H - I am done arguing with you it’s beyond that point

I left room stayed away for 30 mins calmed down and went back in and things got back to normal. The normal being bare minimum convo, I happy with kids and he doing his own stuff.
Why does he want my opinion on things he buys for his house? Is it pouring salt in the wounds on purpose?
He Is still good with kids, spends good amount of time and handles them well.
How is he expecting to see them only for couple of days a week soon? How will he be emotionally ok with that? It is like twisting a knife in my heart when I think about those times that D3 will miss him and cry for him
It is very hard to see there is a better ending to all this

I do not think he will just stop coming home once he moves out. He will drop in often I think but well no telling with him. Either way I am not going to allow cake eating, it’s either with family or his single dad and bachelor life. The decision is his, the choice to stay strict with it is mine
God I need strength!!

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