Urgh. So the W has taken the dogs for a "day out to clear her head". I know she's gone to see the other one. I know it, and it's killing me. I am trying my hardest to GAL, to focus on myself, getting a place to stay and not think about what she's up to right now, but it hurts so bad.
I feel like I should have known when I met her, it's exactly the same situation, just that I am the one left behind now, not her ex. I could kick myself for falling for her, I wish I had never met her. At the moment, the whole 14 years feel like a big fat lie.
How do I get past this? I am trying to "fake it til I make it", but I've never been any good at faking anything, I always wear my heart on my sleeve and hate pretending.
