Afraid of the dark PART 3

[Ste7e]

Yeah I am also wondering if interactions with W meant I surrendered or felt just being was not enough?
I also have a lot of idle time as I havent worked directly except online selling in the last 3 years..I wonder if that is really working against me? What I uncovered today as I sat with the idea is that my anxiety is still running quietly in the background.
I will journal on this topic and get back to you.
In the meantime let me go help Hongaku!