And yeh, I know, I need to do a lot more things for myself, just struggling to see the point in all of it right now. I am trying, but it is so incredibly hard to function as a solo person after all this time. I feel like someone's ripped my right arm off and my heart out with it. I don't have a lot of friends, and certainly no close ones, they have all disappeared over the years, so she was not just my wife, she was my best friend (or so I thought), so losing that as well just [censored].
