W made a nice family dinner last evening and we all sat down at ate together. NOT something we do much of at all. A lot of it due to summer, head, kids playing, etc. Some due to W's health issues and her not wanting to cook or eat as sometimes food smells just make her queezy. But it was very nice. I didn't go out of my way or make a big deal, but I did thank her for the meal. She knows what everyone likes and kind even though it was simple, made sure everyone had on their plate what they liked.
Later in the week is when I always get worried that something will happen prior to the weekend. I feel that she feels pressure since we have a couple of days together and she has to "accomplish" something to push her agenda forward. I am focusing on GAL, 180's and db'ing. I am concentrating very much on not being around her as much when I am at home. Moving from room to room. Not "avoiding" her, but not puppy dogging around her either. I am also controlling my impulse to glance in her direction and also kicking the pedestal that I put her on out of the way and seeing her just as a person, the house guest, the cashier, etc. Anything but the woman I love, my W and the mother of our children. I know this is way more for myself and a great part of the detachment process.
Not much else going on. I am reading and following other's posts on here and gaining some very valuable insight. There is some really great information here.
Oh, got a high 5 from my D yesterday and some just silly conversation. Loved every word and moment of it!
M51 W44 T21 M18 D14 S11 BD date 9/17 W filed 02/18 W withdrew petition following week In house separation 03/18 In Limbo and DB'ing since 03/18 W is moving out by mid Nov 2018 A drawing up paperwork 11/18
