Of course it does J9. It does. But you have to set your mind when facing these facts. Feed only your monkeys. I know it is no easy but it is the best for you and your Ds. Like LH says, it gets better day by day.
I know the spark is a dye hard b!tch. We live on hope. So keep shining and enjoying your Ds.
And change the name for widow. Or is it just me? ...