ballast and Davide, part of the journey through your sitch, while DBing, is that you fully accept your responsibility in contributing to the problems in your MR, and 180 on those. The reason for that is to become better, stronger, and ready for the next R in your life. Whether that is MR 2.0 with your W or whether that is a brand new R with someone else.

The problem is to not allow it to turn into self-pity, wallowing and being depressed about it. Beating yourself up over it does no good! Recognizing your mistakes, and resolving to learn and grow from them IS the key. And start right away. Don't dwell on the mistakes, recognize and take action.

And do it for yourself! Don't do it to try to convince your W to stay. Lasting change isn't to try and manipulate others or to achieve some specific outcome. You make the changes so that you are better moving forward! This is why we constantly talk about being the best you that you can be. Not for any other reason than to be the best you for yourself. (Others will take note, but that isn't the goal.)

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018