My Ww is home, as I mentioned in last thread. She says she is really happy to be back, says it's been hell since she left.
We have had a few relationship discussions over the last few days, mainly telling me bad things I did not taking any blame. I have been really good about not loosing my cool and getting emotional.
Yesterday morning when we were talking I happen to inquire to her about it we reconsiled getting a joint FB account. This was a no deal. She didn't want no part of it. I just walked away and went outside to think and be alone.
A few minutes passed and she came out and said hadnt you rather be in here with us rather than out here starring in the woods. I said I'm about to go to bed.
A little while later she came and said she would consider the FB change. I don't really think she is serious though, that would be a huge change for her, it is such a big part of her life.
She did admit to being a stay at home mom really got to her. How for 6 years that all she's done and how controlling I was. I apologized and told her all I ever done was take care of her and try to protect my family. I don't think I was very controlling, if that means telling one of her single drunk friends I didn't want her at my house getting wife drunk before having to have kid at school in the morning is controlling then I am guilty.
We went out to dinner last night as a family, it was really nice, came home watched a movie and went to bed.
This morning I got up early, hit water heater issues ugh!!! So I went to depot for parts and waited to get her up for work. She commented before leaving she has noticed lots of changes in me over these 3 months and she appreciates all the help.
I don't feel the love. I don't know if it's there anymore. Sometimes she misses me passionately, but then sometimes doesn't say I love you when hanging up the phone or if she does it feels forced I don't know. I let it go, don't say anything.
Time will tell all. I hope I'm not a doormat, I hope she comes around. She did say yesterday "no one has ever looked at her the way I did". It made me feel good about my sitch.
