Sorry for the hijacking of your thread Steve. If you prefer, we can continue this conversation on my thread.

Where I come from they refer to the lottery as a tax on stupid people, so I've never played. Isn't that just an example of delusional hope leading people to make poor decisions and waste their hard earned money? You are demonstrably better off not playing the lottery than you are participating in it.

You asked why I am so attached to this idea that one must drop hope to detach. Obviously, I personally feel like hope is what is holding me back. Unrealistic hope. It feels to me that once I extinguish that completely I will be more ready to move on. Maybe I am wrong about that. I freely admit that I am a noob and don't have the experience of so many of you. At the same time, I don't know that I want to be on these boards in 4 years still in limbo (not a dig at you, Vapo, I have no idea of your sitch.)


W 34 Me 42
Married 7 years together 8
0 kids 1 beloved dog
BD 4/6/2018
I moved out 4/7/2018
I moved back in alone 8/05/2018
I file 3/06/2019
D official 5/7/2019