you drop the expectations, not hope. Expectations, unmet expectations hurt. You being a newbie at this, you still have a lot to go through. I am not familiar with your situation, but it says here you registered in May 2018. My BD was June 2014 so some 4 years ago, so I do have some experience at this. First 3 months after the BD is the time of shell shock, where the LBS cannot quite grasp reality, cannot quite fathom what happened. Then reality starts sinking in. About 6 months post BD reality has just about set in and you still try to find the silver bullet, that one action that will save it all. It will not. Correctly you concluded, that the vast majority of cases here will not reunite. And when you come to the conclusion, that the main purpose of this page is to offer support and to save the LBS, then your path to recovery starts. It is a slow path, it is a winding road, with many forks in the road, where you sometimes stray and have to back up some.
As for the no EA/PA in your signature, I would not be so sure. In 95% of the cases it turns out there is an outside influence.
