The beginning of a long and painful journey

[Kronar]

Thank you for clarifying it for me and giving me incite into what it did for you and what you faced.I am doing excersise but at the moment I do not want to go near a gym as that is what helped steel my W away from me as the people at hers helped W walk away without even knowing me. I know theyre not all the same but they are becoming ever more popular places for people to start A in.
I lost my faith quite a few years ago but I am truly grateful for the upbringing it gave me.
I will be cautious the next time I go out and try and keep my wits about me. I do not really head to the bars during the week as I can not afford to with all my bills now. I just have enough to have one blow out a month.
Thanks again.

Mate you need to go to the gym. You will gain muscle, strength, respect from other men and woman, confidence due to your increased fitness and you will also meet people that are not in the bar scene. I don't know what current shape you are in but it wouldn't be a bad thing to be in better shape. You need to do it right though. "Bigger leaner stronger" by Michael Matthews is the best book by far for anyone looking to get into shape that does not already have the required knowledge. Its a digital download on amazon so you can start reading it right away and put it onto your phone with the kindle app and read it at the gym. This guy has basically taken everything I have learned in my 20 years of exercising and put it into into a book that anyone can benefit from . It includes how to diet to get abs, recovery, everything! I was an avid weightlifter/bodybuilder for 20 years until I stopped going once my WAW and I had our first child. I have got back into it recently and it is the greatest thing in the world for my confidence levels. I am not back to my past levels (its harder when you get older and I am 43 now) but I am feeling pretty damn good about how I look. It will take some time to see results but when you do you will love the results!