Detaching / Dbing... Can I get to Piecing?

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At the beach with D3. Had a good day but missing W like crazy just the 2 of us. W remains nice and apologetic, interested in spending time just her and I. Then said today she is in a good place and does not want to mess it up. Seems pretty unfair and unsustainable since I pay for her place and give her money. I would love to be patient and her come to me. I told her it was unfair to say we should get a drink and get a meal for weeks and there needs to be a boundary if she does not do what she says I pull away. I think I am going to pull away to try to act like we are divorced stop with the texting back and forth and pictures of D3 all the time. If she chooses to spend time with me I would love to share everything but I am at a loss. I guess I strayed from dB gotta get back on the horse. I keep falling off and pursuing when she She wants to do something. I have this work situation maybe I should just show her excitement instead of the concern and anxiety I feel about work and life change.

Maybe I am projecting insecurities. Having some anxiety with the question marks in my life. I miss having a wife and family and partner a lot. I may leave my main job for another coaching opportunity. After I just moved to the community where current job is. I am tired of fighting with people i am supposed to be working with. New opportunity seems like opportunity has a lot of potential but I am nervous about lack of security with a lot of financial responsibility right now.

Advice greatly appreciated.