Oh what a day... I woke up this morning and instantly cried. I was due to go to my first counselling meeting but I couldn't face leaving the house. I then found out by a bizarre chance that the kids school would be open for parents to view school work. The counselling session clashed so I rearranged it.
I was then feeling much better. I met the kids at the school and W arrived. W said she would have sent a text to tell me that the kids work was available to see but she's having a problem with the messaging on her phone today. I do know that her phone memory is about full and some other parents said they only found out today... but I don't trust her at all and she could have called or sent an email.
I heard a parent I know well speak to W about arranging to go out for a night this weekend. It isn't a wild night out on the town. W has shown all the classic signs of WW but now I'm not quite so sure.
I stayed cool and I concentrated on the kids school work rather than W. I didn't speak to her unless she spoke first and I kept answers to a minimum. I stood back away from her to give space. I turned my back at times. I did some jokes with the kids then W tried to be funny too, she wasn't. I told her she would have to try harder than that.
A teacher said to us about people 'missing one-another and wanting to be together'. W looked at me and gave a nice big smile and knowing look. I couldn't help but respond with the same. We'd not seen each other for about 5 days which is the longest apart for 25 years. I noticed that W was hanging around with me for longer than she needed to be. Her phone rang and she ignored it (ummm...). I then said I had to go as I had things to do. She then said that she did too.
W then said she'd walk in my direction . W said there was another school thing to attend on Friday morning. She also said she was coming to take some things tomorrow evening but she wasn't going to take everything. She said she would come back for the other stuff (that is less valuable and that I use) at a later date.
I then said I was walking to a shop going past where her car was parked. She got annoyed and said we could have gone the other route. I said that it was her idea to walk the same way as me.
One thing I noticed, since W left, her eye pupils have been tiny and she looks very defensive and guilty. She has also been milking the situation for attention from people. She seems to be returning to herself a tiny bit at times. However, It always seems to be the calm before the storm with her. She is nicer to me and then I get hit hard by the next step she makes.
Considering the terrible start to the day. I couldn't have done any better.
