Re: Moving past the WAW to a stronger me Pt. 3

[Davide]

I am feeling incredibly down right now. Just alone and sad. I think the two straight days of 9 hours in the car took something out of me, combined with the recent contact. I haven't been exercising much at all since Saturday. That can't help. I am tired both physically and mentally. I just feel at the end of my rope. It's not the same anxiety as before, just physical and mental exhaustion.

I am at a conference with lots of sessions and other teachers to meet and talk to, but I am finding it exhausting to sit in a chair and pay attention for hour-long stretches at a time. I go into each session with a positive outlook and an intent to be mindful, but I quickly feel it slip away and my mind begins to wander. Last night I ate alone, which I have done plenty of on this trip, but I dread doing it again.

I talked to my IC for an hour which was fine, but not very productive in my opinion. Going through a "constructive problem solving" activity which I already knew the answers to was not very helpful. I realize that I lack patience, but on dark days like this I feel like I am spinning in circles and going nowhere.

I should be doing yoga right now, or driving out to a climbing gym, but that requires more energy than I have.