It doesn't matter if W notices, if you do. And in many ways it's best she doesn't until the point that there is so much shift it creates an amazing contrast.
This makes a lot of sense. Obviously I wouldn't be here if I didn't desire to reconcile with my W, and ultimately I do indeed want her to notice. But you're right, a stark contrast could be the ultimate 180 in a certain way.
You're also absolutely right that becoming a better man for myself is the key to moving my life forward regardless of anything else and that my noticing my shifts is what matters. Intellectually, I know this. It's not easy to keep the emotions out of it though. I do miss my W and kids and being together as a family.
M: 40 W: 37 T: 20 MR: 13 S13, S9, S4 BD: 1/29/18 Sep: 4/23/18 (I moved out) 8/24/18 I come home, she moves out
If you want to get out of the hole, drop the shovel.
