OK I understand where you are coming from.......it is a slow process but I would encourage you to take this time and invest in yourself. Get to the point to where you are just fine being alone and a complete person without anyone else in it then when you enter your next R you are doing so as a whole person not needing anything from your partner to complete you. If you take your time I can tell you from experience it is a very rewarding journey. Hang in there....better days are coming
Thanks Joseph,
I have been doing a lot more self care, it it shows on the day to day for sure.
My short foray into dating was very eye opening, i am actually looking forward to excelling alone, and really coming into my own being, as a self dependent person. It was a fleeting desire for human connection, and it was forced, so it was quick to be revealed as not the right course of action for me. I am waiting for love to FIND ME, and im not putting any expectation or timeline to that. I am far more interested in becoming better, carrer, living situation, health, habits, etc.
See my previous post regarding how im interpreting my feelings for her lately. They arent "I miss her and want her back" feelings anymore, just when feelings do pop up they tend to be more along the line of "I wish this didnt happen to me, its a damn shame it was never gonna work, and she isnt who she claimed to be. A disappointment as the person she pretended to be was amazing, but the person she actually is, is someone i want nothing to do with."
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
