Advice on my Scenario Pt. 19 - Valhalla Cometh

[OrangeK]

still feeling a bit down after yesterday. I really look forward to the day when she has absolutely no effect on my mood in any way shape or form. I found that I spent most of my evening Reminiscing on happy memories with her, being upset by the tragedy of the loss of a happy family unit. The woman I loved is gone. Whoever I saw yesterday is not my wife, I do not even recognize her anymore, and that really makes me sad. additionally it goes to show how attached I still am and how much work I still need to do there, last week on mornings that she had S3 she was sending me the messages from her room at her mother's to prove that she had slept there. I definitely woke up today hoping that I would have another one and so far I have not. it Grieves me to admit but the thought that not only that my wife left me for another man, but also the fact that the woman I knew and fell in love with truly has gone presumably never to return is Weighing on me heavily today. She seriously is like a completely different person in personality looks style attitude and preferences. it makes me pity her because I know how unstable she is but at the same rate it is a bummer to know, and fully realized and accept that there is no course for reconciliation ever. There is no going back. yesterday was simply a very painful reminder that I need to Press On with my journey forward and alone