For some reason, I feel like the first one after divorce can't work. I feel that he will want to explore. However, he has explored. He is almost 50 and got married in his 40's. So he has certainly lived a life and dated. I guess it is not an impossibility that one day, we could be an item. He did say he is definitely not ready for a "full-on" relationship and can't make any promises and has no idea what the future holds. So I guess it doesn't definitely NOT hold me.
He actually texted me tonight asking me how my weekend was. We had some convo then I asked him if he was definitely interested in that out of the norm event we were talking about because I have to make reservations. He said he thinks it will be fun and he is definitely up for it.
The anxiety may creep back up. But it has eased now that I am getting to know him and his patterns. To deal with it, I have a full social life and my hobbies and I will focus on that.
Am I not ready for falling in love now? Well, my daughter gets tons of attention from me, and if I decided not to have a real R or love until she grown up, well, that would have been 18 years of my adult life. Because I have been divorced forever. It is a challenge to build things with my limited schedule and no kids involved, so maybe, just maybe, right now, having someone to have some hot dates with and go really slow with (emotionally slow), IS what I need right now. Or what is meant to be in my life.
He really is a great man. It's been great getting to know him.
