You are still in shock from all that is hitting you. Your emotions do not want to accept what is happening, so you stay in a state of turmoil.

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She was also cleaning out her things and looking at new furniture(she claimed the furniture was for our house). Our stated agreement was for me to eventually move out and for her to stay here so thr kids wouldnt have to be uprooted.


Refresh my memory, please. Was this just something that was initially said when she was talking about breaking up the M, or did you sign a legal separation agreement?

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!