Nicole the way your WH is right now, he reeks of irresponsibility, immaturity and selfishness. There is no beauty in the world that can cover the stench of the inner decay in personalities. Have you read the MLC for dummies thread in the MLC forum, try it its really funny painfully so but does make you giggle. They even talk about LBS losing weight On my thread you spoke about how you feel the void after your H left. I forget from your past posts, how long after BD did he move out this time around? How was the atmosphere at home with D before he left? Do you think with the new place the void seems lesser now? And as for you, indulge in some self care and retail therapy. Even for a minute looking at yourself you feel good, that one minute of happiness is worth it at this phase of our lives. You have a D, she will notice when you dress up, she will compliment you, that will make your day. Any little bits of joy we get now we should lap it up. - arshi