Mmelisa,

Thank you for your thoughts. I certainly have been on the emotional rollercoaster lately. Experiencing every emotion except joy. The deep pain is the worst and almost unbearable...i never though she was cabable of being so cold!!! Thankfully ive been able to make some changes to the way i take care of myself, think, etc. And that has certainly helped. Im managing much better. But i still occasionally have a moment of absolut sadness, especially when i think about holidays, vacas, etc. But as i said, im makimg progress by focusing my mind on positive productive things as opposed to being the victim. I dont want to embrace being the victim.

Im going to improve myself so that im better than ever!!! Its all i can do. And i owe it to me and my kids!

Thanks again. Its nice to know others read your sitch and take the time to share thoughts.