Afraid of the dark PART 3

[Ste7e]

Thanks V an AS and Mmelisa,
This is all the kind of invaluable advice I need to hear!
I am on the last day of my 45 day road trip and will be back home tonight.
I am going to sign the D waiver tomorrow.
Alot has happened to me and my thinking on this trip.
I have taken care of alot of work while gone and formulated a business plan for moving forward in work which is a huge GAL for me (been out of work and idle for the last 3 years)
My Depression is completely gone but I still about once a week have some residual anxiety that I am working on.
I have not spoken to W since last phone convo and do not plan to moving forward.
I realize we cant be friends and if she ever considers Rec I will know balls in her court.
I also had the big realizations that first off I do not need anything from her, I do not need her or anyone to validate me I know my self worth! And secondly, I do not need to engage with someone who treats me bad and makes me feel bad. I
Will not give my power away. Of course I still love her and I am taking accountability for my stuff..nothing more I can do.
Reading several books mentioned here and following Sandis rules.
One day at a time : )