I hate feeling like I'm back in the position without any power, which is setting off alarm bells for me.

44- Power is not what you should be seeking but you are in a position of power- The power to control what YOU do.

M51 w50
T-20Yrs M-16Yrs
S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up
1 Awesum dog
BD 10/31/17
separate rooms 02/08/18
wife moved out 05/17/18