Meanwhile 12 Years Later

[DonH]

I greatly appreciate the comments! In the name of honesty, and I always above everything else want honesty, this is something I noticed right away. It's part of why I've named her Wild Girl here. However having you guys call it out even more makes me want to watch. I had a pit in my stomach at first. But... Me being me, is this just the excuse I needed to stay distant? Might be part of it.

Now... I really feel,I need to be fully clear here - if nothing else in fairness to WG. I NEVER said 10 beers in 6 hours. Where did that even come from? She got to my house at about 11:00 AM and we left right away for the ballpark. We went to bed after midnight. So we are talking over 12 hours here - more than double what everyone else is thinking. I also did not count. That might be weird on my part to count her drinks. So it might have been 8 in 12 hours. Of course it could have been 12 for all I know??? I'm just not that sure. I'm guessing at 10 beers in 12 hours. She also said she cannot do this with IPA and other "real" beers, which is why i did not see this before when she out drank me by 2 or 3 to 1. The thing is, EVERYONE out drinks me by at least 2:1. EVERYONE - unless they don't drink - which is me 80% of the time. She had 3 or 4 from about 2-7ish on Monday. I had nothing.

My bottom line right now... I'm concerned. I know addiction very very well. Hell, I speak professionally about it! She knows my opioid history. I know far less about alcoloisim than I do drugs but I'm well aware. Still I'm blinded a bit by fun and great sex. I won't lie.

She has tolerance. That is for sure. However tolerance does not equal alcohol addiction. I can think of three friends right off / two women and one guy / who drink more than Wild Girl. All have tolerance, which is a bio function. The two woman I'd not say are alcoholics in need of help. The man does need help and has three DUIs to prove it. These girls can drink but don't fit most of the other indicators of the disease. The guy has family history as I believe does Wild Girl.

Back to bottom line. I'm watching even more, thanks to you guys. Right now I just more see it as yet another item we are not compatible on. I rarely drink. Her behavior does not change much and certainly not for the worse. If anything I'm more concerned she is getting way more attached and invested in me than I'm looking for at this point. I'll save the whys of why I think this for another post. I'm just seeing some more signs. My eyes are wide open to it all. Still, it's only been a month. She's got plans for the next week nearly. More than anything I want to make sure I don't lead her on. I may have been dong that more than I've realized. I do not at all want to hurt her. She constantly says we are just hanging out - not even dating. Just two consenting adults, I'm way outside her normal box, she trusted me enough to end her 8 months of no sex, etc. which if is all true, I'm very good with. I even thought/think I could be her rebound from the guy she's know for near 15 years and she did really love. I just wonder if she's being honest about her feelings for me. There is more to play out. As I've been saying... To be continued.