Can I really do this #4

[Dtrmned]

Detachment is very hard!
I do need to do better and realize that.
I also don't want to just leave our home and go out that often. Workouts take a lot of time and yard work/house work helps as well. Reading in the other room, etc. Just a fine line due to the financial issues to heading out and doing stuff. There are a ton of things to do that don't cost anything and I am working more on those and getting my kids out with me which will let her realize more and more what this will be like when we are gone (kids of course only with me half of the time, but it will still sting if/when it happens). We have had zero conversations about "our" future nor have there been anything lately about the "can't wait to get my own place" thing. She did ask about the job offer though and I updated her as to what I know. We will see what today brings, and if she calls, texts or when I see her, I will take a breath and think prior to speaking.