Can I really do this #4

[Dtrmned]

Arsh. Great thoughts! and as difficult as it is I do need to open up my eyes a lot more and realize who she is today not the woman I fell in love with or have spent all those years with. She is struggling. Justifying. Worried. Scared. Mad. Angry. And mostly all of this gets directed at me. Last evening she was particularly short and appeared to be itching for a skirmish. I didn't engage. Did my thing and let things settle down. I can tell she is trying to pull back more and at the same time keep me on the hook. Kind of sad to me, but glad that I am realizing and noticing the subtle things. Not trying to read into every action, just noticing what the patterns are becoming. So another uneventful evening in limbo which is better than the alternative at his point.