Still doing my morning routine and going to the gym when one of the guys approached me saying that I look like I am very dedicated to health and he proceed and ask me how I train. I used to train alot back in the day as a matter of fact the last time I set foot in a gym before joining this gym was on my wedding day. Anyways this guy says what makes you keep coming back almost everyday. After I thought about it - I said -coming to the gym is my gift to me everyday-It allows me to continue to get better everyday. Having this thought in my head linger and also thinking how W has been the heaviest she has been- It made me realize that I too was very overweight(270 lbs) and unhealthy in my relationship and this probably made me unattractive to W. The tables have turned now with me being more health . Although I receive compliments I must not get complacent and make this a permanent shift for a life time.
On another note I got a email back from a company that I interviewed for saying -we have chosen another candidate. I also had a phone interview which is to be followed up by an online behavioral survey. One other interview for a small company which I think was pretty good. somethings gotta give soon.
S has stepped up his game and is being more proactive in the home. One of the positives that have come out of this sitch is that we have definitely become closer. Yesterday he helped with making dinner again. Before I could not sit with him to do his homework for 10 minutes without a confrontation. Now we work more like a team.
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18
