Letting go for my own inner peace

[Irish M]

Hi OLW

all good on this side of the MLC table. XW still a no show, no message and no sign..

Girls had a little moment of what if. They asked my my opinion and I was as neutral as possible

" DaD, me and D15 were thinking. What if we reach out to our mom and test the waters. Maybe mom is so hurt by her own actions and ashamed of what she did she can't face us. Maybe if we show interest she will slowly come back as a mom. "

I said to them" If you are curious and want to see your mom you have every right to do so. She is and always will be your mom. I can't say what your mom is feeling or her reason for staying away from you girls. You have nothing to lose if your try. Also your birthdays are coming up she will surely send you a message as she had in the past. You can also take that as a start to communicate. Take it slow and see where that goes.

I can't promise you anything but you never know. Only your mom knows how she will react and act after you reaching out.

D17, who will be 18 at the end of July. She suddenly says no.. forget it. I don't know what I was thinking. Whenever I or D15 talk about our mom we lose reality. She really messed up. I don't want to see or talk to her. Besides if she wants us she will do something about it.


So , I know the girls miss her. Sadly they miss the what was her and not this new person. D17 is right and has been since day one of all this. Her gut feeling and instinct were dead on.

Hope everyone is good. I've read some new posts and i see they are all in good hands with the veterans. I wish we were all not here for the reasons we are and this was a forum on how to edit photography and film :-)

I'll for sure be back after D17 B-day. she will be 18. I will be taking her out to my favorite pub.. she has been wanting this for so long. 18 is the legal age here so a Guinness it will be :-)