Ok friends, a quick one before bed. Now, keep in mind a few days prior to my first post there was less tension and no arguing or questioning. Then I started really following the rules (some I already had been unknowingly doing). But, I really feel an improvement in myself and the things I think about in my down time and I've kept myself pretty busy today and yesterday. No text initiations, only replies (although I did have to ask her to pick up one of the kids). Been keeping it super positive at all times which makes me genuinely smile a lot more and much happier with the kids. Really been prepping for the RC fest coming up this weekend. It's the biggest one all year. I'm camping ALONE (well, a friend asked if he could stay in the camper), but I will be with all my buddies all weekend. Much needed? F**K YESS!!! On to W behavior lately. As I said she rubbed my back night before last when I was in pain. She has been a lot more talkative about her day and seems to start conversation more often (probably because I'm not around anymore looking like at her like a lost puppy dog). I was getting in the cabinet and she touched my hand in a completely non accidental way today and has been more "around". It really is hard not to fall into enjoying it and allowing myself to be vulnerable but I swear when things get gushy... BOOM! I think of the rules. So it has been very pleasant, no arguing or discussing any of the no no's. Minimal conversation starting, but not being rude. I can't wait to see where I am in a month. I am picking up the DB book tomorrow at the book store and can't wait to read it this weekend. I'll keep you all posted and thank you again for all of your support. It means sooo much!
