Last night was a hard test of my new journey. I broke my collar bone several years ago and had to have a plate put in. Broke it into 5 pieces, ten screws in total... Anyhow I was having some really bad muscle cramps last night and was having trouble bearing the pain it was causing. I got up to get some Advil, she suggested some icy hot, which I put some on then sat down on the bed and she began rubbing my back. She hasn't touched me (that way) in a month. I wanted to enjoy it so much but all I could think about was the rules. I thought, maybe this is the 50% of what she does that I should believe... Well, maybe, but F that. It's a trap! Back on track. I laid back down, said thank you and fell asleep.
Kels, good instincts here.
After my BD for the next two days my W was very affectionate. Holding my hand, rubbing my back, sitting close to me where ever we were (it was through the holidays). Later, when I mentioned this during one of the many ill-adviced R talks we had, she claimed it was because she knew I was in pain (emotionally).
It had NOTHING, ZERO to do with her wanting to R or work on the MR. You are right, its a trap. It is a trap to get you to let your guard down to make it easier for them to leave without feeling guilty.
This is why "believe nothing they say and only half of what they do" is so so so very important.
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M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
