MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART X

[ItHurts]

IH, wow you get more contradicting advice than anyone else on these forums, LOL!

THIS! ^^^^^^^ Thank you! I am glad I'm not the only one that sees this!

Now about some of these comments. Actually LH, I did say something sexual to her when she mentioned changing pants in her room but honestly I was a bit embarrassed to mention here what I said to her but since you mentioned it I'll tell you...when I came out of the bathroom and saw her pulling her pants up I said "WAW! I'm glad I peed first before seeing this otherwise you'd have to clean urine off your ceiling. I need to sit down now." She busted out laughing and used an old quote from Golden Girls that we used to laugh at...WAW said "Oh yes the big gun, I'm familiar with the big gun." That's when she mentioned I was twice the size of her ex boyfriend in Florida. I was just a bit embarrassed to mention that exchange here.

Now as far as whether she was/is interested my gut says no but that doesn't mean that I'm right. I feel the way things are going are actually drawing her closer to me. You need to be best friends again before you can take it to the next level and sadly after 4 long years it takes time to rebuild that bond. Once that's done it is my opinion the next step will come naturally. If I am too aggressive she will run away and then there goes even the friendship. I feel my chances are better the way I'm handling it now. The result is her seeking me out consistently, encouraging is spending time together, etc. The alternative would push her away. If you told me a year ago that I'd be hanging with WAW pretty regularly again I would have said no way... we'll probably never talk again. So this is why I am doing this my way.

Also as I've already explained...I am not BSing myself. What you seem to forget is something I've stated repeatedly here.
The reason I don't really care and am indifferent to this sitch is because I merely WANT WAW...I don't NEED her THAT is what DBing did for me. So I am totally honest when I tell you I don't care what happens because I know, FOR SURE NOW, that WAW will not go away. She can't last two weeks without interacting with me. She seeks me out. She will continue to do so and I think she's made that obvious to me and everyone reading this thread. So then, why SHOULD I work harder for something I merely WANT and don't NEED. Let HER NEED me...and each and every time she reaches out to me...that screams that she needs me in her life. She can call it friendship or whatever she wants. I know the real deal now and I am driving this car. She knows the feelings will come back for me the more time she spends with me and that's why she actually DOESN'T treat me the same way as she does her other guy friends. She doesn't stay away from her other guy friends for two weeks. Why then does she do that with me? I'll tell you why, because I am not just ant old friend to her. She may not have given me any direct signs to prove this...and that's why I get frustrated, but I know it to be true.

So I'm not BSing myself here. I see this sitch for what it is. And what it is is my WAW simply cannot and will not stay away...and the reason for that will unfold on it's own in due time. I don't think pushing her away by being to aggressive will be productive. Worst case scenario is I'm wrong and we for our separate ways again. So be it, I am fine with that. Again...I merely WANT her...I most definitely don't NEED her. It's the difference between wanting a Corvette instead of a Pinto, or needing water to live. I don't need WAW, or ANY woman to live and be happy. and yes, I am just fine with possessing that power. WAW can't stay away and she won't unless I force her to.
Hope that clarifies things.