I have to say, i took a trip with son, and so many little annoying things kept coming up. I realized they are bound to come up whenever you travel cause its new and you are navigating unfamiliar areas. I started thinking, its a good thing he wasnt here cause i made a lot of wrong turns, went to the wrong parking lot that the restaurant was in, forgot my sneakers, my son got ice all over the hallway and i wouldnt want someone getting annoyed and calling me out on it. It was easier to not have some one to answer and to not have soneone to comment or nag.
It also made me look into a very ugly mirror. I was constantly critiquing my ex. Making snide remarks meant to inflict guilt with my ex.
I cried not because of the guy, but because i had put my ex through this. My ex is very intelligent. Perfect math sats type of intelligent. Incredible at directions. But he had trouble getting out of the house. And ugh. I complained and made a big deal. I should have just accepted amd lifted him up. He was accepting of my flaws and never ever put me down. Until BD.
I am pretty intelligent in certain areas, but it takes me a while to process when it comes to directions or in new environments or with emergency situations. (I could not function as a nurse, but make a good PT where i have the luxury of an hour eval and trial and error to problem solve) Im a bit scattered and slow. And ng complained and made a big deal. I dont know if he will again, cause he now knows i wont accept it. But knowing i did this feels bad. And i miss my ex.
I am pretty sure my ex is an addict though amd had been for a while. So he might not have even been there with me to nag me? Maybe he was just going through the motions?
